2:04 AM drinking Organic Green te

I've never been one for talking.
well, actually i talk a lot.

But i've never been good at talking.

I mean i know how to keep up a conversation and keep it interesting and entertaining, but when it starts getting personal I just can't talk.

And I'm not like broken or something, 
I know how to talk about myself, I know how to express myself, and I sort of know how to explain myself.

What I mean is that:
 yeah, 
I know how to talk about my life, 
whats happened and happening; but it seems I've forgotten how to put myself in what I'm talking about.

when it comes to my emotions, I'm reserved. 
I don't share them with everyone, and its a bit baffling. 

I'm concerned because I'm Not Your Average Joe.™
I'm different than a lot of people, I still care about the little things.
I listen well.
I listen as you explain everything that is wrong for you.
I speak to you and explain everything will be alright with you.

I dont shoot people down I tell them they can fly, because why not?
I push forward and try my best not to get dragged backwards.
I'm not perfect and I don't ever want to be.
I've learned to love the kinks in my armour and the memories attached to them.
I know I have God on my side as my protector, teacher, guide, and hope.
I know that I've got a life and so I'm gonna live it to the fullest..
I know Ill come up to heavens gates in rags and bruises, sobbing in smiles, saying I used it, I used it all Dad. Everything you gave me I gave right back to your Glory. 
I know he will tell me "You are home son." and I know one day I'll come home.

until then, 
I'm just gonna keep talking...

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?I wonder who will listen¿