Where have I been?

I've walked up and down these same streets a hundred times but every single instance is so different. 

I know each crack, i know where the two slabs of concrete don't meet evenly so I need to watch my step. I know the cars parked along the curb, at least some of them, the ones that are there week after week. 

I've walked these paths many times, most times there is someone walking next to me. but its the walks alone where i truly wonder. 

I have stuck inside my own shell for too long, i call it a cave. I run there, i pray there, and i hide there.

I've gone out of the country only but three times and i've never walked on the opposite side of the earth. I don't know where ill be or when i will get there. i simply know that i need to get out of this cave.

because well its dark and i can't see straight. I'm loosing sight of the light because I'm so caught in the dark. and You can not see in the dark, you cannot even see yourself in the dark. 

I've lost myself to many things too many times. I am not sure how to really find myself, I'm walking up and down these streets and i know where i am, i can remember where I've been, but now I look up from these cracks I've memorised and I start to question where i am going.