2:04 AM drinking Organic Green te

I've never been one for talking.
well, actually i talk a lot.

But i've never been good at talking.

I mean i know how to keep up a conversation and keep it interesting and entertaining, but when it starts getting personal I just can't talk.

And I'm not like broken or something, 
I know how to talk about myself, I know how to express myself, and I sort of know how to explain myself.

What I mean is that:
 yeah, 
I know how to talk about my life, 
whats happened and happening; but it seems I've forgotten how to put myself in what I'm talking about.

when it comes to my emotions, I'm reserved. 
I don't share them with everyone, and its a bit baffling. 

I'm concerned because I'm Not Your Average Joe.™
I'm different than a lot of people, I still care about the little things.
I listen well.
I listen as you explain everything that is wrong for you.
I speak to you and explain everything will be alright with you.

I dont shoot people down I tell them they can fly, because why not?
I push forward and try my best not to get dragged backwards.
I'm not perfect and I don't ever want to be.
I've learned to love the kinks in my armour and the memories attached to them.
I know I have God on my side as my protector, teacher, guide, and hope.
I know that I've got a life and so I'm gonna live it to the fullest..
I know Ill come up to heavens gates in rags and bruises, sobbing in smiles, saying I used it, I used it all Dad. Everything you gave me I gave right back to your Glory. 
I know he will tell me "You are home son." and I know one day I'll come home.

until then, 
I'm just gonna keep talking...

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?I wonder who will listen¿

Trevour Owens™

 Never be afraid to jump.

Cast your gaze upon the †

Run my child.

well its not my child...

Just my picture of a really cool one.

Run to the Father with joy like a child chasing a bird.

People say..

People say.. People say..

Alright so things happen.

When they do you talk about them.

But you also listen, you hear a lot...

 In your head, 

other people voices, 

other peoples voices in your head.

But what do you think?
What has your Spirit spoken?
When it comes to love, you are always suppose to chose love..
If you really truly believe in Love than you must walk in it. 

People are gonna tell you a lot of things, but if you listen to them and not the love that moves you' you will be stuck standing still for a long time.

LOVE WILL MAKE YOU RUN. 
Run with me and I'll carry you when your knees give out.


When I fall it will be into your lap or at his feet...

People come and go, but my love for you; for everyone, it will be hard not to remember.

Whatever.

Sometimes I feel like I'm walking slowly smoking a cigarette while my mind is running laps.

I'm trying to teach myself to meet somewhere in the centre, and the centre being Christ  †

I've spent too much time playing tag with my thoughts, when I should just be swimming in my own lane.

I was born in Portland in the rain and I have always been a swimmer.. 
I don't know why I've been out of the water for so long..
 Like truly, it is so simple. 

Just dive in.

Whenever wherever you feel like an island amongst the vast blue ocean just start to swim... 

You see we adapt, 
we float, 
and then we swim.

°°But some people drown.°°
Well, Yeah i know..

But if you never dive than you'll never emerge.





Come to the river.
And I'm not crazy and am referencing some river in Africa..
≈≈≈≈ But just come to the living water. ≈≈≈≈
Because if you don't, you will dry.

Do not lose who you are trying to figure out a way to quench your thirst.. 
I know it, I know at least one of you is like me and you are tasting what the world fills your cup with and you realise that you want more. Not of what you're drinking but more than what you're drinking. 
I'm talking to you.

Come to the river
and
dive in.

Everything here is 100% me. Photos and Words.

It's 12:42 Am on whats now technically a Thursday January morning. My friend Brendan is out cold on my futon and he's snoring pretty well. I am so thankful for music, to me music is a way of tuning your life to words and melodies that get to bring out your happiness.

 I really am a happy person; Sort of. I mean I think I have a purpose, if I don't then what the hell, I'll make one for myself and still thank God for the life I get to live. Like that is so crazy beautiful to me, the fact that I get my own life. One where I get to make the choices that shape who or what I become. I don't know the man i will become but dang if I get one whole life I'm going to have to give it to the glory of the one who purchased my ticket. 

Life is not a rollercoaster or an amusement park. Life is life. It gets naked, it takes showers to wash off its dirt and it continues. Life has storms that bend our beams but do not break them. Life gets rain and life gets droughts. 

I'm learning that it doesn't really matter though.
Like think about this..

Forget for a moment the need you have to fight the Father who designed you inside your mothers womb.

God is in love with you.
God delights in you.
There is nothing that you've done that can keep him from smiling at you.
And that radiant grin is with you 
in
all
of
life.

†

12:30 AM ÓÒ

I really don't see the same things as most people do. I see different things from the same things.

≈≈ Verily, I think it's because I can still take the time to look ...≈≈

†

Be the light you look for.

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Please remember 
that you are beautiful.
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~~†~~Look at your †eyes† through my lens~~.†~~

Keep your eyes open. See things how they really are. 

Thinking out loud.

I find it weird the way we work.

One minute we're so happy and then the next we are hysteric.
I'm certain some people have already read this and felt a little proud thinking "well no not really." and it makes me smile because even they can be guilty of ambiguous mentality variations.

I go outside a lot.
I don't exercise as much as I should but I worked so hard in water-polo when I played in High School (plus God helps me out too) that I'm still in good shape.  I do really enjoy being outside and looking at things; I often wonder about the things I look at like their creation and creator. I get fascinated with our lack of knowledge, and laugh at our time to consume it. I don't believe a lot of what I hear but I hear a lot and listen.

The time spent while alive is ironically slim. At any moment you could die. Any.
I've noticed how people get really scared about death and so they stop listening. It's like you're talking from your heart about anything and then a black noise comes and they get so distracted by it that they forget to listen to you but rather just listen to whats going on in their own head.
I do it too,
sometimes. But I really try to starve the roar of an evil lion and feed the kind one. I think most people recognise at one point of their life' that there is a bombarding of negative thoughts being buzzed in the background of your head. People respond to this black noise in so many different ways but some people just listen to it. I don't get it anymore.

Like i really just am tired of the way that lucifer works. I believe in God and the devil. I capitalise the Father and never lucifer to symbolise that God is bigger.
I believe Jesus Christ, Yeshua is his Hebrew name. 
I worded that specific, I believe Jesus Christ. I believe what he said, what he stood for, and what he does. I believe him.

I believe he teaches how to make your dark noise into light. I think he won the battle of the mind, and defeated the predisposed universal limitations that we are raised into following.
I believe he spoke both literally and spiritually when he said we could move mountains with our faith.
I believe he believes in you and that he believes in me.

what i know is that looking at him has helped me to better myself as a human being, I think I'm pretty awesome and I'll be the first to say it. I've been fighting for a long time spiritually (or mentally if you want to take a Scientific stand against the word spiritually because of your connotations and beliefs.) and I've grown in wisdom. I'm not wise. lol. not at all. I'm just listening, life tells us all so many things. Life tells us about ourselves, the people closest to us, and the people who hold the most power.

I just want to remind you that you alone hold the power to Listen, I warn you that there is a fine line between listening and believing. Never let what you believe stop you from listening. Listen to the world because when you hear what they say, you will know exactly what to speak.

High life

Life is forever what you make it... 

My Altitude matches my Attitude.